Tuesday, February 13, 2007

This is a paper I wrote way back on September 9th, 2002 for english. A lot hasn't changed. Some has.

-Hello, my name is Mike Mendoza. I am sixteen years old. Some may say that I am a typical teenager, and they may be right, but I don't like to be stereotyped, so I tell myself that I'm not. I am a very diverse person, not really in the activities I participate in, but my mind controls what I do. Sure, everyone's mind does that, but whether I'm by myself or with other people, I'm in my own world, and it shows. I may tell people, it depends on if I want to or not. I'm independent enough to choose, and I also depend on the people around me. It's a great balance that I don't want to teeter either way. Right now, however much I complain, life is good.
-When I say that I'm independent, I mean that completely myself at all times. I will not act as if I have to act or talk a certain way just to please someone else. It isn't all it's cut out to be. I may hang out with friends who belong to a certain clique, but it's hard to stay with them for a long time because I don't fall into any particular clique myself. That's why it's good to hang out with maybe four or five different groups that will influence me in their own way. I can adapt to each group but not assimilate myself like them. This is because I am a good learner.
-I have always been an extremely fast learner. Older people always tell me this, and it gets to my head. I swear that I know everything, and it's good that I notice this, because, what I've been doing lately is learning how to react to people, not just how to do things that can be mastered, which I always do [anyway]. The issue is I have to put myself to the task at hand, but that's also something I'm learning. Other people I will never completely understand, but I'm trying to quickly master "people" so I can have an advantage.
-An advantage over people is nearly impossible unless everyone except me became much more
ignorant. But that world doesn't exist. Or does it? In my head, maybe? I'm walking down the street, I have thirty seconds, I'm over five miles away, and the penalty for being late is to walk the distance until the next day. Why not run? No. Wait. Why not turn around to find a fast sports car with my name on it? It doesn't drive, it flies at supersonic speeds; yes, that's it! Along the way, the buildings are firing missiles at me...
-This is what goes on in my head 24/7. It's [not being able to manifest ideas] the only thing that depresses me. Being in this world where we are limited these too these pathetic bodies and minds. and the truth is most people don't think of this normally. Most people are stuck in this world. They take it for granted, when it could be taken away from them, or them from it. Sometimes I wish I didn't think like this. It is depressing. I may have it wrong, but at least I think I'm different in my own amazing mind.
-I think sometimes people depend on me for answers because maybe some part of me is what they aren't. I don't know what it is, but I do the same with other people. I don't really like people having to depend on me for things because I'm afraid I won't have the right answers. I'm willing to try, though. I won't back down from a challenge, even if I know I surely can't win or be right.
-I don't mean to sound narcissistic, but I am a lot of fun to be with. I can make almost anyone laugh, but I won't try if I know it isn't going to be funny. That's my goal in life, to make others laugh. I love it because I don't have to study for it, and I don't even have to pursue it as a career, all I have to do is have someone around once a day who will genuinely laugh at me for being a cornball.

-When all of my traits come together, there will be no stopping me. I will be able to make other people laugh as if they've never laughed before. I will alter the laws of this earth with my mind as I control peoples' trust in me because a man has nothing but his word. I will be my complete self without interference. There will be no stopping me.

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